Watch Them Fall: My Baby: Karamel

   Hello everyone! Today we have a post from a good friend of mine about trusting Him and remembering that He is with you through the thick and thin, the good and the bad. Even when things seem the worst and can never get better, remember that God has a perfect plan for you! Trust Him - it's going to be okay. 
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   My family and I decided that we wanted a dog and my auntie’s dog had just had nine puppies, but I chose Karamel, the golden brown little puppy. After four months of having the best blessing of my life she passed ...
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   It was January 23, 2017 and it was my dad’s friend’s party from work and that was the
day I got Karamel. My parents and I decided right after the party we would get her instead of getting her after we went to the store. After the party was over, we got in the car and started driving to my aunt’s house. We finally got to my aunt’s house. The second we parked, I got out of the car and sprinted to the door and rang the bell. My aunt answered and I ran to the backyard where the puppies were and I saw a little golden (as in a golden retriever puppy); I looked at my parents and said, “She’s the one.” I knew Karamel was the one the second I saw her.
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    My dad responded, “I agree, she’s beautiful.”

   After talking for an hour, we decided to head home since we had school the next day. The drive home with Karamel was the cutest thing ever. She was so scared, she held onto me the whole time and every time I would try to give her to my dad she would hold on tighter. We arrived at my house after an hour drive back and I ran upstairs and put Karamel in her new bed that we had gotten her before we picked her up. My brothers came home from church and didn’t realize Karamel was there because of how small she was but the second they saw her, my big brother, Jai whispered, “She’s so small and cute!”

   A week later, I found out my grandma was getting Karamel’s sister, Angel. So we went
back to my aunt’s and picked up Angel. Karamel was so happy to reunite with her sister again but one day we brought Angel to my house and that’s when they started acting weird... A few weeks later Angel started throwing up and having diarrhea. I think Karamel got it from Angel because Karamel wasn’t eating as much as she used to, then she started having diarrhea and throwing up. But since my family and I were in a pinch, we had to hold off going to the doctors, so my dad and I gave Karamel dog friendly medicine.

   We found out Angel and Karamel had a disease called PARVO. A few months later... It
was April 23, 2017 and it was the day Karamel passed. It was a sunny Sunday morning and Karamel was still not feeling well so my family and I decided to bring her to the doctors when everyone woke up. Karamel was not in a comfortable position so I put her on the floor with her bed. After having Karamel on the floor for a while I looked down anI saw Karamel running into place.

   My big brother, Jai, came in and said, “Good morning.”

    He also realized Karamel and he reminded me to stay calm, watch her, and to go on my phone to keep myself awake. I remember him coming in again and asking me, “Is Karamel breathing?” I got off my bed and picked her up and she felt like she was jelly. 

   My brother ran upstairs and grabbed my dad and he came running down crying. He got Karamel and started looking for a heartbeat but didn’t find one...my brother and I started pouring into tears and my rest of my family came down and started crying too. We brought Karamel to the vet and they took her. A week later I got Karamel’s ashes in a box, but I remember telling myself, “It’s all your fault.”

   After knowing Karamel was gone, my relationship with GOD faded even more then before. I remember blaming myself and GOD for Karamel's death. I stopped going to church for another three months because of her death. Her death was so impactful because she had meant the world to me. She was the reason why I wanted to keep living because at the time we had her I was going through a lot with family problems and I was stressed and sad. Karamel's death did not only hurt me but also my family. My dad was heartbroken because he was the one always with her when I wasn’t, as well as my big brother, Josiah. My big brother Jai was always the one messing with Karamel and her passing broke him into pieces. For my little brothers and I, it was so overwhelming because my little brother didn’t really understand what was going on and to this day they say, “Where is Karamel?” I try my best to explain but it never works. The person who was most affected would be me or my mom because Karamel was known as my Dog and she would sleep with me every night and never leave my side but for my mom... it is crazy because without Karamel passing, my mom would not be the way she is today. My mom cares about the dogs we have now so much to the point if anything happened she would be so sad. But the craziest thing is that my mom was not a dog person until Karamel's death. Now she hates when we talk about Karamel 'cause it makes her so sad.

   I realized everything was gonna be okay the second I felt GOD for the first time. The second I got into sixth grade I started going to church again and when I heard the song Set a Fire by Jesus Culture​ it reminded me that GOD is with you and that you and me are not alone. Now everyday I go to church on Sundays and Wednesdays because of the Holy Spirit bringing me back to the Lord.

image creds: West Dartmoor  graphic design: With All of My Heart